The Eff on the Derck - September 11th, 2009

I have the merciless drone of the wall fan in my ears and the comforting sliver of yellow light from a door slightly ajar. The rains have since stopped falling and it woke me up. This is wholly against my current predisposition but hey, I haven 19t written for some time now.

It 19s been one of those long weeks. To be perfectly straight, it 19s been six months of those long weeks. I 19m at a point where I 19m starting to ask myself why am I doing it at all? I 19ve thrown everything I know at it and more, given time otherwise spent somewhere else, and it 19s responded. 30% increase in certain KRA 19s and higher in others. But the monkey won 19t budge. G*d*mmit the freaking monkey won 19t budge.

Gotten awards and all that clap clap clap for me and my team. But it still feels empty. Now I 19m blogging about it. To be fair about it, I am happy with most things, but with this  13 no. I 19m still there mainly because of a promise. To a group of people that I will show them how things are run as I was taught. The downside of it was, they all want to go where I go now. Until I teach the next step which is go ye and propagate the principle, I have a nuke on my hands once I tender the bye bye baby papers.

So f*ck. Another series of long weeks.